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Monday, March 17, 2014

Daybook 2014

I am thankful for:
~ my family
~ friends, in real life and on the internet
~ Catholic doctors
~ signs of spring before the snow started falling last night

miniature daffodils



I am listening to:
Very loud music traveling up through the floor boards. Chris is in the basement working out to classic rock.


I am praying:
~ for infertile couples
~ for my grandmother
~ the St. Joseph novena for my husband and my sister-in-law's house to sell


I am pondering:
Why I blog, and how blogging is helping me to become fearless.

When I first started my blog it was to create a space where family and friends could catch up with my family outside of Facebook because not everyone wants a Facebook profile. I also thought it would be nice to feel like a part of a large Catholic homeschool community because our local community is small. Plus, I love to journal and used to love to scrapbook, so I thought that having a blog was a great way to combine the two things.

What I did not expect was how having a blog would boost my confidence. I have suffered with low self-esteem and social anxiety since I was a small child. Without going into great detail, I was not raised in a very loving home, and I was told almost every day how ugly and stupid I was. Understandably, I eventually believed those words. Thankfully, in my adult life, I have been surrounded by my husband’s family and caring friends. They, along with my faith, have helped me to realize my value and helped me to be a more open and trusting person. Without their encouragement, I would not have started this blog nor continued to keep at it. What started out as a fun hobby has turned into an exercise of self-acceptance. Where I used to think that my opinion did not matter, I now know that my opinion is as important as everyone else’s. That is a huge step that is for me.

Recently, I pondered and prayed about my blog, not sure if I should continue to write about my life here. After a time of uncertainty, I know God wants me to continue to blog. Not to reach and teach other people, and not for fame and glory, but to continue to heal. It may seem selfish, but it is not meant to be. By becoming more self-assured, I will be a better wife, mother, and friend. I will be closer to the woman of worth that God created me to be.

If you have been one of my encouraging supporters, one of my few faithful readers, I want to thank you. Your encouragement has blessed me. I hope, in some small way, I can return the favor.

strawberry plants


I am reading:
~Raising An Emotionally Intelligent Child

~Orthodoxy (Moody Classics)

~Bringing Lent Home with Mother Teresa: Prayers, Reflections, and Activities for Families


In the schoolroom:
A couple weeks ago, I was offered a six free trial of K5 Learning for two of my boys in exchange for an honest review. Thomas and Ralph are always asking me to sign them up for one of the different online educational programs, so I accepted the offer. I set everything up yesterday, and the boys will start using the program this week. They are excited.


In the craft room:
~ a lot of baby knitting
~Dimensions Needlecrafts Counted Cross Stitch, Robin's Nest

Robin's Nest cross stitch


Around the house:
~ cleaning out the closets
~ creating space on the bookshelves


Around the internet:
~ How To Approach The Suffering at The Pitter Patter Diaries

~ A Year of the "Francis Effect" at Mama Needs Coffee

~ How posting What I Wore Each Sunday Healed Me at One Catholic Mama

~ The Battle that is Marriage at Better Than Eden

Ralph wanted to wear shorts. I said, "Okay, but wear a jacket." Ha! 



Linking up with Jenny for Moments of Grace: Online Daybook at Plain Grace.



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8 comments:

  1. Erica, I really love the direction you're taking this blog. I haven't been reading many blogs lately (too much travel, two sons' weddings, etc.), but I have been catching up on yours this morning and I think it's wonderful that you're going to share more of yourself here. I agree with you about blogging: sometimes I ask myself if I should keep with it; but I think it's just something I really need to do. I think it helps me in so many ways. And it's wonderful to connect with so many great people through blogging. Plus, I think some of us just really need to write!

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    1. You have been busy lately, but the best kind of busy!
      Thank you for your encouragement. I am glad that we have become friends through blogging. Definitely keep writing. You have a gift!

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  2. I am glad you are blogging.
    Great stitch work. That is awesome.
    I enjoyed reading your daybook.
    I've thought of doing that Sunday thing. But I'm so heavy...
    I admire anyone with the confidence.
    Blessings,
    Em

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    1. Hi Emily! Thank you for your kind comment. You should link up with Fine Linen and Purple for WIWS. I was so nervous the first time that I joined in, but everyone is very friendly. I am sure you look lovely! :)

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  3. I love the bird's nest. Of course!

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    1. I am going to turn it into a pillow. I think it will look fantastic in your reading chair.

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  4. When I read your comment about your feelings of low self worth as a child I wanted to reach through the computer screen and give you a big hug. You've got sisters in Christ who think you are beautiful - inside and out. :-)

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    1. Thank you, Bobbi. I am grateful for my sisters in Christ.

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